she systematically changes her mind although
this doesn't seem to help. could it mean all the same thing. i mean
there is a continuum. don't you think. a nasty affair. one i don't care
to deal with for quite some time. but that's ok. i mean really. it's
ok. just a problem we can fix without too much trouble. you know. you're
very cute. does it come naturally. or is it an ordered thing. she never
even listened. although she tried. she just never really got there.
it's a shame. shame. don't you think.
when the ferry left i couldn't help myself.
i had to go down there and buy myself some chocolate. it's not that
i'm addicted or anything. far from it. i have total control. as much
as anyone else. we're all good at it. all fine. just a little jumpy
when it comes to the crunch. silly little habits that drive us wild.
she wore a red coat and a blue helmet.
and it drove me crazy. really. every time that bike went past. i almost.
god. yes i almost. so i run inside to do something about it. it's very
gentle. very sincere. but this can't be. huh. slip on a pair of gloves.
and whacko. off you go. all the way. don't stop. can never tire. it
really has to go beyond that. nasty affiliations there. but that's it.
no more. easy going. easy. more than you'll ever need. i assure you.
when. after lunch i heard the news. i could've
died. shocked me it did. hardly could believe my ears. such a sunny
character. wanting nothing more than a good rain. not too much for a
chap to ask. but there he was. a shocking accident. or maybe it was
one of those 'meant to be's'. you know. one of those funny incidences
when. kah-pow. a blinding light. a funny smell. and it's all over. bye
bye. see you later. couldn't take anymore if i tried. (not that i have.)
once it passed over i felt relatively
relieved. a superficial belonging led me to believe extraordinary things.
is it always like this. can this construction keep moving. i feel a
little unsure. this of course is due to the increase in shock treatment.
just a pause. then off we go.
